/=4U|_t
is on me
sorry

goodbye bff, till i see you again!
rmb to get me lots of things &
have fun there, will miss ya
love you muamua :)
♥

she feels alone and sorrow
having nowhere or noone to turn to
she soaks up her pillow
in dear hopes that its going to be alright
she cuddles her teddy and whispers goodnight
hoping for a better tomorrow

and that pretty much sums up my day.
:)

晚安

♥♥♥

people are going mad crazy insane, you name it.
why not live life to the fullest while you still can
what happened to being happy?

looking through pictures reminded me of so many things.
how i've changed, how people changed, how friendships changed. i still remember all the promises we made when we graduated from primary school, promising each other that we'll be friends forever but it seems as though we're strangers now. i miss so many things, so many people. i miss all the people ive been so close to before and yet now we're all so drifted apart; the people that changed so much throughout this year. i miss when life was so carefree and easy, when it seemed like everyday was a happy day. pictures truly speak a thousand words and things have truly changed, its good to think back sometimes. i guess today was a day for me to reminisce on the old times, be it good or bad. its 2 in the morning and im going to get some rest now, so goodnight ♥

this feeling is overwhelming me again
my insecurities are eating me away
why are humans never satisfied
or is it just me?

things seem to be weird nowadays, i feel so distant from everyone and everything. i hope things get better, this week of supplementary classes has been really tiring especially getting up early when you know that everybody else is still sound asleep, just one more week and its over! and after that just one and a half more months and 2010 will be over. i know this is really cliche but its just amazing how time flies so fast. next year will be such a tough year i have no idea how i am going to cope :( lets not go into this subject shall we, i cant wait for tmr hope everything will turn out right mr sun please shine brightly tmr thankyou! :)

today's a really happy day other than the results on my exam slips which were really disappointing but anyways, it was still a happy day! it wasnt really good at the beginning but it ended off really well :) spent the day at orathai's today, it was great fun! doing the things we did like the old times; taking forever to pick a movie to watch, making a mess in the kitchen, going crazy and taking pictures of ourselves. i really miss those times and im glad we're all back on track again, i really enjoyed my day today and it wouldnt be the same without the two of you, love you guys ♥

been quite awhile since i updated this empty space here,
im glad that i no longer have the tendency to use the computer
everyday like i used to, now what i have to do is to get as much
sleep as i can to take away all these bags of sand under my
eyes and lighten the load. things havent been going the
way as planned but nonetheless im glad the exams are over.
im afraid of what the outcome will be when i get my exam
slips, but im predicting that i'll be having a frown on my face,
naggings after naggings from my parents and maybe even
being grounded? i hope not, but anyways today was good with
the soh sisters, been quite a long time since the 3 of us spent
time tgt and im glad we did today. trying on clothes, going crazy in
shopping malls and making small petty arguments and laughing
over the matter a few seconds later really made my day.
hope everything turns out okay tmr, goodbye world.
:)

life has been pretty smooth sailing lately :)

this week sure flew by fast and i cant wait for tonight to be over.
i'm going to bed right after i drink my cup of marigold fresh milk so, goodnight!

lets stop. think. catch our breaths
time is running too fast, its too hard to catch too tiring to chase. lets give ourselves time close our eyes and let the wind run through our hair, lay down in a field of dandelions and clear our hearts maybe make a wish or two dream of flying unicorns, rainbows, prince charming and everything nice
its time to stop and let go, we've been too hard on ourselves

time now, 11.50pm
its 10mins more to another hour, 10mins more to another day. 10mins less for the time left to sleep and 10mins less the time in my life that i spent typing this. time flies so fast, the end of year exams are already coming and i havent really touched on a single subject yet, let alone a chapter. i have been trying to concentrate in class but at times i give up and let myself get distracted by the things going on in class or fall asleep, i hate this. i feel that im not ready to sit for the major exam next year, im afraid that i wont be able to discipline myself to study early and im scared i wont be able to take the stress. but yet again, i think of all the things that'll happen after i graduate from high school and go on to a whole new atmosphere, a whole lot of stuff ive yet to learn, a whole new circle of people ive yet to know and i get excited. and after that i think about the time when i finally grow up, pass my driver's license, get a job that i love doing, meet the love of my life, get married, buy my dream house, go on a honeymoon and have lovely kids :) thinking of these makes me psyched and all ready to take on any challenges in life, but i think back and i still have a long way to go! so yes back to the point, i should really start studying. but right now, its time for me to sleep! im going to count sheeps and dream of happy things tonight, so goodnight :)

at the end of the day, you are the only one who can control your emotions, thoughts and feelings. when youre facing a difficult situation, tell yourself you can get through it and move on. as you do so, the situation begins to get smaller, you get stronger and when that same situation comes hitting you right back, it becomes easier to overcome.

its not easy but im learning and trying as well, so just keep in mind that youre not alone.
:)

things change too quickly time flies too fast troubles hit you all at once hard times never come to past good times never seem to last times like these are so tough

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLIN!
i hope you enjoyed yourself with the surprise plus the cake today, and
though i know that you probably wont get to see this post, but i just
want to say that i love you! ever since you came into the Soh family,
yes i admit that it was hard for me to accept you at first but slowly,
things got better. i learnt to love more and though at times i may throw
my temper at you, please know that i didnt mean it and that im still
trying to be a better jiejie everyday, and im sorry for everything
i did to make you sad or hurt okay? i promise to be a better
sister! youre part of the Soh family now and im looking forward
to doing all the sibling stuff together with you. i cant wait for
universal studios tmr, i promise you we'll have a great time!
i love you dear meimei and once again, happy birthday!
sistersoh, rock and rollllll ♥

disheartened

once again i tell myself, tomorrow will be a better day
its time to stop thinking and shut my mind
goodnight

hi, living a day without a phone wasnt that bad after all...
but im glad i got my new simcard and a lao ya pokaye nokia phone
already yay i hope daddysoh decides to get me a new phone soon
or maybe i have to wait for my contract to end which will be next year..
gah whatever the sucky thing is that all my contacts are gone grrrr..
i feel so tired i was supposed to research on my history work but i got
distracted and decided to delay time and right now i am delaying more
time. the time now is 11:53 why does my brain feel so clogged up
i cant think straight, everything seems to be fluttering in my head
i wish i could lay on a field full of dandelions with nothing on my
mind and just dream of sweet little nothings..

back to work, bye

so precious, so close to my heart

i dont like it when youre like that. i dont like it when you turn yourself against the world, and just shut down your whole circle of connection. dont you know that youre never alone, that you still have us, welcoming you with open arms when you feel rejected, or when you just need a helping hand to be there for you, or a shoulder for you to lean on. my dear, you are beautiful just the way you are. we love you very much and i really want you to know that.
love, your bff.

this week has been packed with dance performances, and boy am i glad that its all over. ndp performance in school was so fun, nomore tiring dance practices from 4-7 but yes i'll definitely miss all the crazy and silly times! it was so encouraging to see my dear friends there to support during the countdown on sunday, though we looked like fools in our banana costumes seeing them there made it all better! i had 14hrs of sleep today, i slept at 2am last night aft seeing the fireworks at the teletubbies hill aft the countdown which was rly pretty! i woke up at 4pm and it felt so weird. okay anyways, happy birthday singapore! i loved seeing the fireworks ytd and today from ivan's house, they were magnanimous! :) tomorrow's a holiday and i hope i wont waste the day away, right now i should really get some rest! i hope i dont wake up so late agn like ytd hehe goodnight people!

hello august! you sure did fly by fast.

please be filled with lots of sugar, spice and everything nice! :)

i need you to be real good, july has been tough enough.

i love it when the whole house turns upside

down by the screams and laughter of the 3 sistersohs.

all we're missing is brothersoh who is all the way in

europe! cant wait for you to come back,

home is not the same without you ♥

time check: 11pm
its past my bedtime and im still not asleep!
bedtime plan failed once again grrrr
maybe i should wait for another 11mins
to make a wish HAHA just kidding, goodnight

ive learnt to discipline myself to go to bed early
sick of trying my best to stay awake during lessons and
seeing those sacks of sand under my eyes grow bigger and
bigger each day. the ndp dance practices are so tiring...
everyday from 4pm - 7pm is just too much but oh well.
alright its time for me to sleep, time now is 10:14pm yay!
goodnight everybodeh, sweet dreams :)

school is boring, its always the same old routine over and over again. tmr's tuesday, which means long(er) and dreadful hours of school time.
i hate the new timetable

what now?
GAH

You are after all, what you think.
Your emotions are slaves to your thoughts,
and you are the slave to your emotions.
-Elizabeth Gilbert

every little girl needs her daddy
to be on her side
to be there to hug, to love and to smile
youre still here but your heart is far from mine
tell me what i did this time
your words cut like knives
and shoot like guns
every little girl needs her daddy
but where is mine

"don't live by emotions
hard, yes
impossible, no
resolve
determination
NEVER degrade yourself
don't let it get to you
BE HAPPY"

daily reminder,
thank you xoxo ♥

i hate the fact that in this world we're living in we're
so affected by the way people think about us, in every
small or big thing that we do. like if we get a new haircut we
get all tensed up and frightened by what people will
think or say when we go to school the next day.
i really wonder if all this is ever going to stop, its
getting really tiring and i wish i could break from all
this and just have a little confidence in myself,
even if it lasts just for a little while.

i think im too dependant on people
im still learning, still trying to be independant
so just give me time to work things out, i'll
get there in time to come

i hate myself so much

why dont you go ahead and like this

JOKE OF THE DAY:

James says:
x.x
ew need to poop
kimbly says:
SAME
OMG
HAHAHAHA
SAME
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA
OMG
OMG
James says:
HAHAHAHAHA
kimbly says:
I HAVE BEEN HOLDING IT
FOR DAMN LONG
SINCE U NOW GNG
James says:
ME TOO
kimbly says:
I ALSO GO
HAHAHAHAHA
James says:
HAHAHAHA
kimbly says:
OK
OKOKOK
James says:
OK
kimbly says:
TALK TO U LATER
HAHAA
U CFM FASTER
BYEBYE
James says:
YEAAAAA
kimbly says:
I GO FIRST
James says:
why!
ok bye!
haha
kimbly says:
BACK
James says:
back
kimbly says:
HAHAHAHA
EH
OMGHAHAHAHA
AHAHHAHA
James says:
LOL
kimbly says:
OMG
OMGOMG
James says:
HAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAH
kimbly says:
WE R SO COOL
OMG
OMG
James says:
weirrrrd
same shit timings

HAHAHAHAH SBB4EVA!!

some things are better left unsaid.
hush now, everything will be alright.
♥

i forgot the feeling of waking up early in the morning,
washing up and getting ready for school but tmr will be
the day that it starts all over again. i cant believe its the
last day of the june holidays alrdy, it seems like ytd
was just the start of it.... grrrr i feel so dreadful i dont
want to wake up early in the morning tmr....
sigh whats the use of all these braggings.
life goes on.

youth camp 2010 = ♥

im off to china and hongkong and i'll be back
on friday! going to the airport later at 1pm, im
not very excited but thinking about the shopping
makes me psyched about it! alright till then!
♥

GUESS WHO'S BACK!!
camp was MINDBLASTING i'll blog about it
soon enough. im off to china with family minus
brothersoh who left for europe just now and the
trip's going to be on monday till friday and on
monday school starts. aww man
alright goodnight

time now is: 2.12am

finally, the day that ive been waiting for is finally

coming! i'll be leaving to KL for youth camp in

about 5hours and im super excited about it :)

sistersohs (x2) and i went to hunt for our youth

camp stuff today and then headed to ntuc to get

snacks for camp. we bought so much food that it

seemed like we were going to stay there for about a

month when its just going to be a 5 day 4 night camp haha.

i hope time doesnt pass by too fast! i cant waitttt!!!

alright toodles, i'll be back on the 18th! :)

till then, xoxo

outing with these two crazy people on wednesday was fun,
and bonding time with sistersoh on friday was awesome.
youth camp is in 2 days time and i cant wait!! i cant wait
to get out of this boring old place and experience the
camp that i have been waiting for since forever.
these four days is going to be a blast, and everyone will
be away except for poor zoeyee that will be sitting
infront of her computer screen playing her sims (tsk)
haha and orathai have fun tmr will miss ya get me
loads of stuff like pots and pans cause you know
your dorota needs it ;)
♥

today was a good day, except for the rain that
disrupted our picnic and talking session, and not
to mention our chance of stargazing too :( we were
drenched from head to toe and i had to carry a plastic
bag full of leftovers of chips, chicken, biscuits and
sushi around town with the other 2 flower girls
but overall, today was rly fun with you guys, love
you both even though i hate it when you guys
tempt me to take a cab when i dont want to cause
im saving money. hahah ♥